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Holy shit just woke up from a dream that they released skecthes of patroclus in hades 2 AND sketches of his mother it literally felt so real like in the dream I went into tumblr.com and everyone here was freaking the fuck out
#I hope I’m a prophet I hope this means something#the levels of coping have reached the dream realm I fear#I feel just slightly insane#hades game#hades 2#patroclus
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So I accidentally almost got into an argument on Twitter, and now I'm thinking about bad historical costuming tropes. Specifically, Action Hero Leather Pants.
See, I was light-heartedly pointing out the inaccuracies of the costumes in Black Sails, and someone came out of the woodwork to defend the show. The misunderstanding was that they thought I was dismissing the show just for its costumes, which I wasn't - I was simply pointing out that it can't entirely care about material history (meaning specifically physical objects/culture) if it treats its clothes like that.
But this person was slightly offended on behalf of their show - especially, quote, "And from a fan of OFMD, no less!" Which got me thinking - it's true! I can abide a lot more historical costuming inaccuracy from Our Flag than I can Black Sails or Vikings. And I don't think it's just because one has my blorbos in it. But really, when it comes down to it...
What is the difference between this and this?
Here's the thing. Leather pants in period dramas isn't new. You've got your Vikings, Tudors, Outlander, Pirates of the Caribbean, Once Upon a Time, Will, The Musketeers, even Shakespeare in Love - they love to shove people in leather and call it a day. But where does this come from?







Obviously we have the modern connotations. Modern leather clothes developed in a few subcultures: cowboys drew on Native American clothing. (Allegedly. This is a little beyond my purview, I haven't seen any solid evidence, and it sounds like the kind of fact that people repeat a lot but is based on an assumption. I wouldn't know, though.) Leather was used in some WWI and II uniforms.
But the big boom came in the mid-C20th in motorcycle, punk/goth, and gay subcultures, all intertwined with each other and the above. Motorcyclists wear leather as practical protective gear, and it gets picked up by rock and punk artists as a symbol of counterculture, and transferred to movie designs. It gets wrapped up in gay and kink communities, with even more countercultural and taboo meanings. By the late C20th, leather has entered mainstream fashion, but it still carries those references to goths, punks, BDSM, and motorbike gangs, to James Dean, Marlon Brando, and Mick Jagger. This is whence we get our Spikes and Dave Listers in 1980s/90s media, bad boys and working-class punks.

And some of the above "historical" design choices clearly build on these meanings. William Shakespeare is dressed in a black leather doublet to evoke the swaggering bad boy artist heartthrob, probably down on his luck. So is Kit Marlowe.
But the associations get a little fuzzier after that. Hook, with his eyeliner and jewellery, sure. King Henry, yeah, I see it. It's hideously ahistorical, but sure. But what about Jamie and Will and Ragnar, in their browns and shabby, battle-ready chic? Well, here we get the other strain of Bad Period Drama Leather.
See, designers like to point to history, but it's just not true. Leather armour, especially in the western/European world, is very, very rare, and not just because it decays faster than metal. (Yes, even in ancient Greece/Rome, despite many articles claiming that as the start of the leather armour trend!) It simply wasn't used a lot, because it's frankly useless at defending the body compared to metal. Leather was used as a backing for some splint armour pieces, and for belts, sheathes, and buckles, but it simply wasn't worn like the costumes above. It's heavy, uncomfortable, and hard to repair - it's simply not practical for a garment when you have perfectly comfortable, insulating, and widely available linen, wool, and cotton!
As far as I can see, the real influence on leather in period dramas is fantasy. Fantasy media has proliferated the idea of leather armour as the lightweight choice for rangers, elves, and rogues, a natural, quiet, flexible material, less flashy or restrictive than metal. And it is cheaper for a costume department to make, and easier for an actor to wear on set. It's in Dungeons and Dragons and Lord of the Rings, King Arthur, Runescape, and World of Warcraft.





And I think this is how we get to characters like Ragnar and Vane. This idea of leather as practical gear and light armour, it's fantasy, but it has this lineage, behind which sits cowboy chaps and bomber/flight jackets. It's usually brown compared to the punk bad boy's black, less shiny, and more often piecemeal or decorated. In fact, there's a great distinction between the two Period Leather Modes within the same piece of media: Robin Hood (2006)! Compare the brooding, fascist-coded villain Guy of Gisborne with the shabby, bow-wielding, forest-dwelling Robin:


So, back to the original question: What's the difference between Charles Vane in Black Sails, and Edward Teach in Our Flag Means Death?
Simply put, it's intention. There is nothing intentional about Vane's leather in Black Sails. It's not the only leather in the show, and it only says what all shabby period leather says, relying on the same tropes as fantasy armour: he's a bad boy and a fighter in workaday leather, poor, flexible, and practical. None of these connotations are based in reality or history, and they've been done countless times before. It's boring design, neither historically accurate nor particularly creative, but much the same as all the other shabby chic fighters on our screens. He has a broad lineage in Lord of the Rings and Pirates of the Caribbean and such, but that's it.
In Our Flag, however, the lineage is much, much more intentional. Ed is a direct homage to Mad Max, the costuming in which is both practical (Max is an ex-cop and road warrior), and draws on punk and kink designs to evoke a counterculture gone mad to the point of social breakdown, exploiting the thrill of the taboo to frighten and titillate the audience.

In particular, Ed is styled after Max in the second movie, having lost his family, been badly injured, and watched the world turn into an apocalypse. He's a broken man, withdrawn, violent, and deliberately cutting himself off from others to avoid getting hurt again. The plot of Mad Max 2 is him learning to open up and help others, making himself vulnerable to more loss, but more human in the process.

This ties directly into the themes of Our Flag - it's a deliberate intertext. Ed's emotional journey is also one from isolation and pain to vulnerability, community, and love. Mad Max (intentionally and unintentionally) explores themes of masculinity, violence, and power, while Max has become simplified in the popular imagination as a stoic, badass action hero rather than the more complex character he is, struggling with loss and humanity. Similarly, Our Flag explores masculinity, both textually (Stede is trying to build a less abusive pirate culture) and metatextually (the show champions complex, banal, and tender masculinities, especially when we're used to only seeing pirates in either gritty action movies or childish comedies).
Our Flag also draws on the specific countercultures of motorcycles, rockers, and gay/BDSM culture in its design and themes. Naturally, in such a queer show, one can't help but make the connection between leather pirates and leather daddies, and the design certainly nods at this, with its vests and studs. I always think about this guy, with his flat cap so reminiscient of gay leather fashions.
More overtly, though, Blackbeard and his crew are styled as both violent gangsters and countercultural rockstars. They rove the seas like a bikie gang, free and violent, and are seen as icons, bad boys and celebrities. Other pirates revere Blackbeard and wish they could be on his crew, while civilians are awed by his reputation, desperate for juicy, gory details.
This isn't all of why I like the costuming in Our Flag Means Death (especially season 1). Stede's outfits are by no means accurate, but they're a lot more accurate than most pirate media, and they're bright and colourful, with accurate and delightful silks, lace, velvets, and brocades, and lovely, puffy skirts on his jackets. Many of the Revenge crew wear recognisable sailor's trousers, and practical but bright, varied gear that easily conveys personality and flair. There is a surprising dedication to little details, like changing Ed's trousers to fall-fronts for a historical feel, Izzy's puffy sleeves, the handmade fringe on Lucius's red jacket, or the increasing absurdity of navy uniform cuffs between Nigel and Chauncey.
A really big one is the fact that they don't shy away from historical footwear! In almost every example above, we see the period drama's obsession with putting men in skinny jeans and bucket-top boots, but not only does Stede wear his little red-heeled shoes with stockings, but most of his crew, and the ordinary people of Barbados, wear low boots or pumps, and even rough, masculine characters like Pete wear knee breeches and bright colours. It's inaccurate, but at least it's a new kind of inaccuracy, that builds much more on actual historical fashions, and eschews the shortcuts of other, grittier period dramas in favour of colour and personality.
But also. At least it fucking says something with its leather.
#everyone say 'thank you togas' for not including a long tangent about evil rimmer in red dwarf 5x05#Our Flag Means Death#Togas does meta#and yes these principles DO fall apart slightly in s2 and i DON'T like those costumes as much#don't get me wrong they're fun and gorgeous - but generally a bit less deep and more inaccurate. so. :(#I'm not sure this really says anything new about Our Flag but I just needed to get my thoughts out#i hate hate hate Gritty Period Drama costumes they're so boring and so ugly and so wrong#god bless OFMD for using more than 3 muted colours and actually putting men in heels (and not as a shorthand for rich/foppish villainy) <3#looking at that Tudors still is insane like they really will go to any lengths to not make men feel like they've got bare legs XD#image descriptions in alt text#and yes i DID just sink about two hours into those so you'd better appreciate them
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greetings ladies et al.
this took me months, 3 drawing program switches (and subsequent almost losing/corrupting the whole almost finished file), many in-game field research expeditions, and honestly more literature review than i expected to make, but by jove if i cant go way too hard infodumping botanical and biochemical information to make a speculative biology "thesis" for no reason, then what can i do
written as presented by my silly hearthian xenobiochemist oc, jet :-)
also comes in pdf form for your convenience
slightly bc i saw this [eote/dlc spoilers] speculative biology post from @ms-marz and got inspired
thank you for coming to my TED talk.
#feel free to ask question! at your own risk.#i think i just miss having lab classes and doing my little lab reports#i went slightly insane making this#you know how it is#outer wilds#outer wilds spoilers#dark bramble#speculative biology#bio#jetposting#weird load#this has been done for a while but ive been so busy that im only remembering to post now
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grab somebody sexy tell em hey
+closeup under cut

#kel art#corpse party#can someone spray them down with a hose or something got damn#yoshiki kishinuma#sakutaro morishige#morishiki#i like them a regular amount i think. (<- insane)#idrk whats going on here so dont ask me either#i kind of just wanted to draw them slightly covered in blood#is it their own? someone elses? who knows#morishige i love u my freak........#i know yoshiki looks vaguely uncomfortable but thats what makes it peak to me#he will try anything Once i feel. unfortunately however he cannot match morishiges freak#i miss them really bad actually i have to draw them 500 more times
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NS3 pride headcanons (BECAUSE OF WOKE …)
Danny SEXCHANGE …
NEOPRONOUNJA Brian …
Lady SHE/HER …
#happy pride to the lgbt community. Lady Giller. Brian. and Transgender Sexbang#but fr yes these are my hcs for NS3!! danny is bi / nb is nonbinary (Think About It) + like … mostly closely aligned to being gay /#and lady is trans and bi ^w^#<- feel weird calling these ‘headcanons’ bc these will be canon 4 my ns3 stuff but also like yknow. i will die on the hill of enby nb thoug#because Think About It THINK ABOUT IT …#i actually had more pride stuff planned but i am just. man things are . things are going#i made a little post about it but tldr- jewish magical girls + the ns3 comic + Secret Third Thing are coming soon (in that order? probably?#going slightly insane in the process (and just life stuff) but i am really proud of upcoming work and im so excited to share it w/ u guys :#ninja sex party#danny sexbang#ninja brian#lady killer nsp#lady killer ns3#ns3#dan avidan#brian wecht#honeyposting#honeyart#let me get uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh extra insufferably long tags w/ that …
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shout out to the very distinct feeling of 'oh god i'm going to become at least mildly annoying about this aren't i'. binging ds9 season 1 and i outright giggled at a very small mannerism julian did. got hyped when o'brien showed up. grinned widely at kira just Being There. felt the urge to yell and cheer and scream at the slightest hint of whump. the character dynamics and friendships are beginning to interweave like strings in a tapestry and i almost detonated upon realising this. uh oh.
#listen if you chuck any hint of found family or close friendships into a show ill go rabid#i can feel myself getting attached#i almost yelled and had to pause and take a second to stare at the ceiling#it is 2 in the morning#not equipped for rambling#ds9#star trek ds9#star trek#granted idk if im gonna feel the same soul crushing love for ds9 that i did for tos cause tos is my first love and it aches me to leave kir#however#i love you sisko.#deep space nine#julian bashir#miles o'brien#etcetera etcetera#theyre so SILLY theres so much tomfoolery i uovee themmm#for those interested (hello??) this post spawned because i watched julian tilt back and smile slightly awkwardly but kindly as an alien guy#got in his face and assessed him out of curiosity#and that small acting mannerism coupled with o'brien fucking Being There just made me go insane fsr#the way hes slightly blurred and in the background#theyre all just chilling on this starbase and theyre weaving together and it makes me want to cry a little#IM ON EPISODE FUCKING SIX
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Ok! Had to take a bit of a break for personal reasons (thank you guys sm for the support and patience!) BUT, I should be back, barring any sort of crazy irl shenanigans (knock on wood). As an offering, have my freehand studies of Apollo statues, as I tried to find features I could steal and integrate into my style.
First pass, I accidentally deleted the statue I was using as reference and also ewww gross I hate this one
second pass, ok alright, we're getting somewhere, I'm feeling it.
Third pass. I am no longer feeling it. Wtf happened. Alien looking ass.
Fourth pass. We are back on the saddle. However I am veering sharply towards realism and it is scaring me. This means it's time to ditch the references and stylize, leading to...
The fifth and final pass! I tried mixing the features I picked up from the statues with the style I already had, and it kind of worked? Idk how I feel about it. I feel more confident in my color placements tho so that's cool.
#trials of apollo#toa apollo#sunny speaks#lester papadopoulos#apollart#idk how much of this i'm gonna keep#except for drawing the sculpture lines instead of eyebrows I am 100% keeping that I love it. At least for God Apollo I love it for him#It's just the level of slightly uncanny I feel a god needs.#also ty ty ty for everyone who supported me last month#I know I already said it but I gotta say it again bc I am so thankful for all y'all do for me!!#I am back and more insane then ever lmao
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I just realized that I'm defining 'healing' by 'feeling and functioning a little better than I did before' when from any other point of view I literally just escaped, shut myself in, never talk about what happened, get scared of everything, don't make human connections and re-live past situations as if they're still here. But I am feeling a little better than I did. So I'm having good progress I guess.
#:/#aftermath of trauma#victim of abuse#trauma recovery#maybe i don't really know what recovery is#i'm just looking at slightly less symptoms and I'm convinced this is it#maybe it's about speaking out or getting justice?#but those are not options since I have no proof and entire extended family would stand against me#and swear i'm lying and also insane#i will not get justice or believed in#so what can i do but hide and hope that eventually i feel better :(
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Hi guys it's finally Thursdayyy
Xeno time
Starting off with my favorite one, they kept his eye shines I'm so happyy
Xeno backshot
Xeno texting minors at night?
Non suspicious Xeno
He looks so good grgrhrhr
Stanley's asshole puckering
They
He protecc his husband (why did they change how their statues were from the manga that's straight up evil) (can't even show that one cuz I'm hitting image limit again)
Bro.. Bro... Bro.... He... He's so twink built broo...
Anyways the evil image limit hit so this is all for today, this episode was so peak even tho they changed some stuff but like my beloved Xeno and freaky Stan also lore very awesome
#It's so suspicious I can practically feel my asshole puckering#Xeno's double collar Xeno's double collar#Xeno's built just like me but taller fr what#I'm slightly going insane#I have a job interview tomorrow I'm so cooked#bokuwadrxeno#dr xeno#dr stone#drstore#stanley snyder
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Am I insane for this team? Everyone is all like "Oh use Bronya or Tribbie!"
I don't HAVE Tribbie, but i DO have Hanya! Who not only buffs with Speed, but Attack too! I also slapped on the Poised to Bloom lightcone for Hanya where if there's more than 1 Harmony Path, she and Sunday's Crit DMG will increase, which will buff Sunday's Ultimate effect.
Plus, Hanya inflicts "Burden" with her skill, which regenerates Skill Points for the team when an enemy w Burden is attacked. I also gave her the Penacony sphere and rope to further buff Phainon since they're both Physical Types and it gives her more Energy Regen for Hanya's Ultimate.
Am i 4-D chess-ing myself here? IDK, but I wanna try it out. Still building Hanya a little more, but pls tell me if I'm overthinking this team here and should go back to the meta.
#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr phainon#hsr hanya#hsr hyacine#hsr sunday#am i just being insane for this build or what?? i feel slightly insane
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KAROLÍNA MUCHOVÁ [CZE] in her runner's up speech || CHINA OPEN FINAL || 10 06 24
#yeah..................NEXT PLATE: THE VENUS ROSEWATER DISH.#karolina muchova#wta tennis#<3#dont want to think abt this final actually but here we are#it wasnt even really a good match which i think is what sucked most#like even going through the replay for gifs there's not a lot because coco was just completely in control#its fine................karolina muchova ningbo champion 2025 😭#edit: hey not to be deranged *again* but if you look closely in the first gif you can see the blink she does that i was talking about#just so i feel slightly less insane. forcing other people to see it too. anyways
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My Nanami smut has like 400 notes and my gojo smut has almost 700 notes when I think the Nanami smut is arguably better written because the gojo smut was my first smut lol.
But like seriously, how much do you all like gojo lmaooo😭😂😂

#like i feel like the Nanami smit is hotter#because it is slightly darker#just slightly though#but the difference is still insane to me#tasha speaks 🗣️#nanami smut#gojo smut#satoru gojo#nanami kento
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alright with 30+ hours. I'm gonna yap about my personal itching beef, since I'm having a ton of fun. but.
I think by far one of my biggest issues with the game is how much they flattened out thedas' social & political landscape. maybe for ease, maybe out of fear of tackling their topics "badly," but the way that they both want to address tevinter's slavery, but have also extremely downplayed elven subjugation & oppression as a longstanding lore, is sooo... frustrating.
I think the story so far is pretty solid, I'm having a GREAT time, I enjoy all the cast, but it does feel like it could've been a lot deeper if they'd fully accounted for the breadth of these longstanding lore realities that come with magic & class & whether one is human or elven or dwarven. I've gotten NONE of that, AS an elf shadow dragon. davrin going "that'll endear us to the world..." about the gods being elven is insane -- elves are already oppressed under the structures of thedas! tevinter is where all of this STARTED. similarly, the lack of interaction between magic & class is like... craaazy to me.
these structures are present throughout the entirety of each game, it should feel different in each location. it just feels clumsy to both want to address the social issues of slavery, etc. present in thedas, and ALSO flatten out the differences between city elves & dalish, not emphasize it more especially with an elven origin... like wdym. wdym. that one of the biggest mentions of it with an elven rook is the scroll lore where rook goes "it's about time someone acknowledged what my people did..." about some guy who praised the elves. a shadow dragon elf rook will have been living with a very specific systemic structure of oppression for their entire life. WHY isn't that here. the story structure I'm having a good time with, the characters I'm having a good time with, but goddd it could have been so much deeper if it had actually incorporated some of the complexity & nuance of these social structures in thedas. you look silly trying to both include these themes of shadow dragons breaking slavery and ALSO pussyfooting around The Origins Of How We Got Here. that's not even getting into MAGIC, and how being a MAGE should mean something different in different places. like. whahrhrrhrhrhrr.
#I feel like it just.... lessens the weight of everything by far#love neve but it's insane to me that she DISAPPROVES of hem saying she would've also been pissed that mythal sided with elgar'nan#'enough to start a rebellion?' YES GIRL. SLAVERY IS WRONG? nsgdnkmgfmsgndgfds????????????#you're apart of the DISMANTLING OPPRESSION FACTION. WHERE ARE YOU?#and because these characters' origins aren't being as considered; I feel like their reactions are just#slightly off for the world they're in#this is MOST present with davrin & neve I think -- taash is a little more thoughtful in their pursuit#anyway. whatever. davrin's my babygirl davrin's my belovedest hoohohhh but insane to me that he's#dalish and his biggest commentary on the elven gods is like#haha clan life wasn't for me not my gods!#why not just make him a city elf then. oh wait! we don't care about the difference anymore#I do want him bad though. I do.#dav critical#dav spoilers
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I know that Max is referring to May not knowing anything about Harley's plot in Going For Choke, but for a second I thought he was just taking a moment to call her stupid, unprompted 😭
#pokeani#feelings for queue#tay's tag#i promise i watch episodes other than these but it's always the coordinator episodes where insane shit happens.#actually that's not true. all of AG is kind of like that BUT the concentration of '???' moments is much higher in coordinator eps.#but anyways i've been rewatching the sub just to have a slightly different experience than usual and it's fun!#it is absolutely hilarious to see what lines are missing though (or rather were added). the eng dub just really did all that on its own huh#I'm always like 'ohhh right James doesn't say ''next time let's have them jump off of a bridge'' in this one'.#and Harley isn't calling people boytoys#and Drew doesn't sound like the guy from Blink-182 but with love and peace that one's a really welcome change personally 😭#I would say that the sub is a more normal experience but it does lack the batshit je ne sais quoi of the eng dub.#but it's just really fun to see the slight differences in personalities and episodes and scenes!!!#i'm so glad we have reliable ag subs now.
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#“does it have to?” AGFFHHHH AGONY PAIN TORMENT anyways hiiii guys#weird slightly insane take but what if since they’re so connected at the heart and soul this was also yuuji hearing/feeling by proxy sukunas#desire to try again and change and stay with yuuji#even worse if sukuna refused because he felt yuuji’s selflessness and thought it was better to set yuuji free and just live by himself#like this is definitely all in my head and not how i actually interpret it but my mind loves an excuse to make things more intricate i guess#my post
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Day 44: dough
Ngl he looks really bad but I dont have a way to fix him so I turned him into a pizza

Sorry
#should i main and character tag this?#i mean i genuinely love dough i find him silly#but like this feels slightly rude to him idk#i just cant fix him in a way that matters#ive never found a yarn that was close to his color#and he really is just a ball#idk I'll just tag him sorry. ain#*sorry main tag#inanimate insanity#ii dough#dough ii
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